apologies

the word "sorry" in my opinion is such an important thing. It consists of only five letters but the impact it brings is major. It can either make or break a situation. It can even change your life. I think most people don't really realise the signifance of it. Sometimes all you need is to hear or say the word "sorry" to change everything and turn everything around. Either it could make things better or worse well that depends. The thing that pisses me of the most though is that some people,well certain people take this word for granted. They expect that if they say "sorry" it could magically heal or fix any situation. Well no. You break a person's heart or you crush a person's hopes and dreams and you expect to fix it all with a mere word as "sorry"? At first, I wouldn't mind but if you've been repeating your actions constantly well "sorry" doesn't really cut it. I also do believe strongly in "actions speak louder than words". You shouldn't just say "sorry", I think you should express it. Show it somehow. Show how truly sorry you are. But at the end of the day, one must learn to forgive even Allah SWT the Almighty can forgive his creations, now how about us? I always ask this question to myself but it seriously is one of the toughest things to do. Forgiving a person is not as easy as it seems even more when you've been hurt quite badly. The kind of hurt where your heart has been broken into such tiny miniscule fragments that you've lost your way. So I guess this is a rant post. I'm considering if I should write fiction stories. Seems like a nice idea.

oh and I miss the rain. the haze is making my mind as clouded as the sky.

Tarian Tradisional Sivik dan Kewarganegaraan

On the 22nd of June , my school held a Tarian Tradisional competition for Sivik. So here was how it went, if you don't dance then you have to do a folio. So I'd rather dance then spend my weekends on endless research.

*sorry this last picture is a bit low in quality my friend took  this using my phone*

my favourite subjects were my friends as you can see haha. Actually everyone was decked out in their own individual traditional dressing. It was a pleasant change. You could see how vibrant all the colours were and how everything just looked good together despite the different races and outfits and everything. And I guess that is what makes Malaysia, the diversity of it all. The different things coming together as one. It really is a beautiful thing.

the holidays

In form 4, most of my friends left for boarding school or asrama. Whatever you want to call it. It was sad but it gave me the opportunity to make new friends and get out of my comfort zone. I have to admit, I've made a ton load of new friends since then but you can never really let go of your old ones. When the school holidays come rolling in, that's the time when you're suddenly oh-so popular and you start getting calls and texts and whatsapps and wechat messages and tweets. Everyone's just dying to meet each other. And the boarding school kids are excited as ever to be reunited with their friends again. So after planning and going through a lot of failed plans, well we all settled down to meet up and create our very own Running Man competition event. For those who don't watch Running Man or don't know what it is,well it is a variety show with fun games and such. Or you could just google it,well obviously haha.

So if you're friends with a person, no matter how far you guys are you will try your hardest to make two ends meet. I miss all  of these crazies crucially at the moment so when's the next school holidays again?

gateway.

Went to Legoland for 3 days : Friday,Saturday and Sunday. The car ride to Johor was a pain. It normally just takes up 4 hours to go to Johor from KL but we took 8 hours because of toilet stops,rest areas,to pray,to eat etc. I went with my cousins so you could just imagine the craziness going on. On the first day, it was mainly just getting there so nothing special or wonderful happened except that night. We all went out for dinner and celebrated my 13-year-old cousin's birthday. The next day (Saturday), we had to wake up early and arrived at Legoland at 8:45/9:00 am. And I am proud to say that I rode ALL the rides. Yes,unbelievable. I'm not very big on rollercoasters but since all my cousins were there,they kept urging me so yes,I ended up riding every ride (including the kiddie rides) haha. And we went back at 9:00 pm. We spent abput 12 hours at Legoland and went back home the next morning. But before going back home,we stopped at J.P.O also known as the ever-famous Johor Premium Outlet. And it was funfunfun. So many shops,so little time.

and there's a Legoland Waterpark and hotel coming up in 2014. can't wait.

the girl who has a love/hate relationship with rollercoasters,

ikazamri. ♡    

half dead

lost all my blog pictures. great. I feel like punching the screen. ohmygosh sorry everyone for this unexpected crappy situation. sorry loves. now I have to delete all my posts and redo them. so anyway I hope you guys have a nice day ahead while I go to the corner and cry .